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It is so hard when those around you are diminishing your worth Hon - one can quite easily begin to feel the noise that they are making - but it is just that @Former-Member - noise. We know your worth here and will continue to tell you what we think and that is that you are valuable, caring, empathetic and just plain lovely - it comes through in your words whenever you write. As I said - I know it is hard to connect when you are feeling as you do right now but we are here for you - even if you can just manage to hit the support button - that little bit of connection is good Hon.
Standing right alongside you are encouraging you to believe in yourself in the really tough time 
I have little to say right now, but I have been writing a poem. I would like to post it here in recognition of all you good people here who have supported me in the time I've been here. A little over 2 years now. Right now I dont trust myself to be here, and I feel of little use to anyone anyhow. I just need a few days to sort out my head and my thoughts. I've been badly triggered this past week and its taking a heavy toll on me. Writing helps, and thats why I have been writing this poem. I know I am not mentioning everyone here, but you all know who you are. @nashy @Lauz @Zoe7 @Maggie @BlueBay @Shaz51 @Faith-and-Hope @Peri @Starta @outlander and many others too. This is just the most recent members to post here. Some of you have been here for me since I first arrived. You will never know how much you have all meant to me. Thank you. 💕💕🌺🌺💜💜
Thank you SANE
How nice it is to have friends, here to hold my hand.
What a pleasure it's been, the honour of your company.
Always serene and supportive, I feel you understand.
Care is always taken, with my welfare in your custody.
When feeling vulnerable and in need the most,
I've spilled my heart and soul, into my thread.
Still you support me, and continue to post.
Over 2 years, so many tears I've unwillingly shed.
What a constant battle it always is,
when fighting this anxiety beast.
When therapy would send me into a tizz,
you were always there to pick up the pieces.
So you good people of Sane kept me going,
through the encouragement of you all.
Though many days felt like rowing,
up a rapidly flowing river in a squall.
I thought I'd caught a glimmer of light,
at the end of that long dark tunnel.
It gave me hope that I'd be all right,
and possible even, no longer stumble?
How sadly wrong I was,
as I quickly discovered.
The reason is because,
I've never really recovered.
Twenty two years ago, senselessly assaulted and raped.
I never knew what to do. Nowhere to turn, I suffered alone.
These are the feelings that here, I've sought to escape.
I had hoped, through the seeds of friendship sown.
I've been badly triggered over the past week.
It's taken a hit to my highly vulnerable psyche.
Worthlessness and sadness overwhelms me.
And I find myself on high alert, feeling flighty.
I wake in panic, fearing he's somewhere lurking.
I'm unable to catch my breath, my heart won't slow.
Why are the medications, no longer working?
After earlier signs of improvement, this is a blow.
It is alone and sad I feel, laying sleepless at night.
Floods of tears spill over, my limbs continually shake.
I don't know what to do, or even whether I'll be alright.
I know I need you, but I think I may need a short break?
Sherry
So much of your heart and soul in that poem @Former-Member and it takes great courage to post when you feel like your world is imploding and the darkness taking over.
Take all the time you need Hon - we will be here for you when you return and thinking about you in the meantime. Hugs and love and all my thoughts are with you @Former-Member
