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@utopia I am starting to believe that THE NEED that you, and I, both have is not because we want to know the ins and outs of someone else's life - we just feel the connection, the love, the trust so passionately and fully that we want them to be able to share in our wonderful feelings and believe in a mutual respect, mutual and unwavering trust and a shared compassion for each other and the life that could be with each other in it. I don't believe this will be the case in my circumstance (I want to hold out hope but I don't think that is realistic) but I really hope it will be the case for you. Whatever comes - here with you when I can be - walking with you at other times.
Hugs to you to my friend - enjoy meditating but don't meditate near an ant's nest LOL
28-01-2017 04:11 PM
28-01-2017 04:11 PM
Hi @BlueBay I also really liked @Zoe7 & @utopia 's discussion aout friendship. -- I agree totally @Appleblossom xx
Hello @Happyness, @Zoe7
28-01-2017 04:18 PM
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28-01-2017 04:25 PM
Hello @Zoe7
It is soooo lovely to see your butterfly around again xx
you are a wonderful, caring friend xx
28-01-2017 06:49 PM
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28-01-2017 06:53 PM
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28-01-2017 07:24 PM
28-01-2017 07:24 PM
Yep @utopia a pure, no limits love - I think you have it spot on there
I wholeheartedly agree with your comments about being totally vulnerable.You can only experience the joy and happiness that this type of friendship brings with it if you actually place yourself on the line for that person and yourself also - ALL IN!!
Yes it can also bring the deepest of pain and the greatest of losses but to have felt that kind of love for a friend - unconditionally and without any agendas is truly a blessing.
I really hope that in your situation the outcome is a good one - I know you have been hurting intensely also and I want that to stop for you. I believe you can move forward under any circumstance because you have carefully thought about almost every scenario possible and your answer is still the same - nothing will change how you feel about your friend - it's just the feelings you have inside that may fluctuate according to the responses (or lack of them).
And you will survive - maybe with a small piece of your heart missing but also maybe with it growing even bigger. Whatever the outcome you know I understand and I will share in your joy or help you navigate your way through any disappointment.
Here with you on this journey
28-01-2017 07:54 PM
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28-01-2017 08:37 PM
28-01-2017 08:37 PM
@utopia shame about your dinner - sounded appetising - oh well - salt to the rescue!!!
I know you are well in advance of me in relation to how you interact with people and simply live your life.
For me - disclosing anything about either my mental or physical state to those around me is too much. There are so many variables at play that I just can't deal with it. I find it hard enough with my GP and psychologist. I try to keep any emotions or feelings to myself but this often comes at the cost of my health.
I've got the cricket on atm - sound off again - still not coping with noise. It's starting to get dark out and nights are the hardest for me. I am feeling exhausted tonight, have a headache and don't feel great. Maybe the last week has finally caught up to me - and I'm starting to feel again. This scares me a little bit but I am nowhere near as low as I was the other night. I was starting to feel like this last night but you and @Faith-and-Hope got me over the major bump. I'm not tired which is a major problem because I know I can't just sleep - wish I could but know I won't and in this state will definitely have nightmares. Sorry for laying this all on you tonight - just needed to get it out more than anything.
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