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02-04-2024 06:25 PM
02-04-2024 06:25 PM
Shaky steps to recovery
I feel lost. Such paranoia
i did it all right
though I still mess it up
i run away
I get somatic symptoms
physical too
i am so weird. My eyesight goes blurry
I have a bit of autonomic issues glaucoma early onset though it’s functional. It’s rare though it’s from dissociative aetiology
i can’t function. My weakeness gets weaker
my swallowing gets worse. I can’t breathe. I can’t speak I can’t move
it absorbs me
I have physical issues. I have health issues though in all of it it’s this. It’s paralysing,
it’s stolen life. In everything else I adapt. I am sure I can to this to
i am learning
who has done this too? Or is trying? Shaky steps.
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02-04-2024 06:48 PM
02-04-2024 06:48 PM
Re: Shaky steps to recovery
@Cocoloco shaky steps are still steps my friend, and it sounds like you've got a gut full of determination. How are you travelling this evening, here to chat if you wanna get anything off your chest 😊
May your road become easier to travel 💜
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02-04-2024 06:52 PM
02-04-2024 06:52 PM
Re: Shaky steps to recovery
So painful! It’s hard without bad habits
I am taking responsibility and not reacting
Being responsible
Taking the right steps to recovery
it’s painful still. Trauma cuts deep
it’s so hard to focus
I miss who I was
I am so wanting to do everything
I miss out on so much in these times where I am lost
though I need to take the moments as they come
there is joy and freedom knowing
it will be over
I can make it and so can my kids
I can be calm
I deserve better
thanks for your support
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02-04-2024 07:42 PM
02-04-2024 07:42 PM
Re: Shaky steps to recovery
You're welcome @Cocoloco. It is very hard to build new habits, for sure. But we get better at it every time we practice, and atfer a while new skills and habits become second nature too.
It's okay to grieve for who you were before. To pay homage to the parts of you lost or broken. It's also important, in my experience, to spend time nurturing who you are becoming. Which it sounds like you are doing, with such conviction in yourself, your family, and your knowledge that you deserve better. Inspiring stuff, thank you for sharing 💜
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02-04-2024 09:45 PM
02-04-2024 09:45 PM
Re: Shaky steps to recovery
Hey @Cocoloco
Thanks for the thread, and for sharing your experience and feelings with us. I also want to say that you articulate yourself beautifully.
It's incredible to hear the words you have about knowing you will 'make it' and that you see a future for yourself and your kids. I also want to commend you for recognising your worth; you do deserve better.
Thanks for positing, this brought a smile to my face
💛🌻