good morning @eudemonism@TAB@Former-Member@outlander@Hope4me
I hope that your eye is not infected @Former-Member...good that you are seeing a doctor today...let us know what the outcome is...
Your work is hard physical labour which exacerbates your back...in turn your depression is nudged...reminding you that it is still in the background..
it becomes a parallel to the mouse on the wheel scenario...
@eudemonism@outlander@Former-Member
all of us here on this thread know the feeling of merrygoround let me off...
this does not diminish the intensity of each of our own experiences of pain...depression...
I find that it helps me to write about it though...
I also feel for those who are in pain also
sorry @Hope4me I am not sure if we have met or not...I do not know your story...I can say hello and include you in this supportive thread nevertheless...
@eudemonism @outlander @TAB @greenpea @Hope4me
Good Morning, everyone Tagged, & maybe others, too! 🙂
Hi, Sophia, 🙂
I will be getting ready for my GP appointment soon, so I will make this short for now. I was ready what you wrote about not wanting to grow up, if I'm correct?
Well, when I was such a tiny little child, I would sit under the Gigantic Mulberry Tree, in our back yard (of 3 blocks), I would sit there as long as I could waiting for the Fairies to come, as I believed in Fairies Big time. I would fall asleep for hours under the large out swept branches waiting for the Fairies.
I would make wishes, & believed for them all to come true, because I believed that the Fairies, would make them come true. One of my wishes, was that I would, not grow old, & never grow up!
Until I had the accident, & seriousness of it all, & after all the pain, set in & then serious life changing surgery, that I've mentioned. I have always been, very caring, & loving, yet, most times, a, BIG playful Imp!
When I first joined SF, my Avatar, was always Fairies. I would change the picture, around to different looking Fairies, as much as I change my cloths, at times. I also played with members, & pretended that I was a Fairy to make them happy & giggle.
@TAB, thought at one stage that I was a computer programme. Hahhahaha, I was stunned that I had that effect on people, we had fun then, & @TAB @greenpea @outlander ,would get in on the fun with me, & we all played like children in SF would you believe. Awwahh!!!
Anyway, I must admit I'm not so much fun loving at the moment with all the pain, maybe one day I will get my child like playfulness back, as I do believe it's good for our health, to play sometimes.
I better go get ready now for the GP, talk again soon!
Love & BIG HUGS!
Bella xoxo :)
@eudemonism Yes you have had to BEAR or endure a great deal.
But wow your are almost becoming a party animal, it is almost like you have had a party on this thread. I hope that part has been good for you.
I had appointment with son and doing lots with him today.
Tomorrow singing in Zulu and going to a movie. That is very social for me.
To Y'all
Hello @eudemonism
There probably are not any words that come anywhere close enough to soothe your pain..
I wish that I could do something or say something to help..
I now know that I have probably said too much in fact in the past at times when your struggles were overwhelming..
I want to let you know that I am reading your posts and taking in what you are expressing...
I want you to try and feel by those very actions that I am holding you...supporting you...staying with you...
Even when I have to be away from here at times I am still thinking of you and supporting you..
You are important...you are valued...you are loveable....you are courageous and yes you do have strength even though you might tell yourself otherwise...
big gentle hug whilst you are being held